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Tuesday, September 30, 2003
aaaaaargh
feel so disgusted wif myself.
y the fuck did i do that for??
but i din mean any harm. honest.
fuck. disgusted, abosolutely disgusted wif myself man.
pls forgive me....pls pls pls pls ps....
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:43 AM
Sunday, September 28, 2003
jerk
i made my mum sad again.
y am i such a jerk?? always making the ones i love sad??
sometimes i wonder wat kinda daughter n friend i am.
how i wish that they can read my mind sometimes n know that beneath those cold n harsh words, i love them. really really love them.
stupid me. i blame my mum for not knowing how to show her affections openly, but i'm the same after all.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 9:40 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2003
prelims finally over~!!!
yippee~!! X)
lit paper4 was the last prelims paper yesterday.
haha, returned home after that then went to lot1 to eat sushi buffet with xiang n lyn. hee~ x)
slept early last nite cos no energy to do anything else (not even to play compt, blog, or watch vcds...imagine that).
yup yup, so it'll be a whole new start from today =)
eat, sleep (in peace), play neopets, the sims, watch all the vcds i've been putting off till now n the 3volumes of huan1 zhu1 ge2 ge2 (little swallow princess...stupid translation but nvm =p ) i borrowed from becca yesterday ;) do my manicure, go trim my eyebrows (finally!), go dentist to polish my teeth (getting yellower from all the coffee n nicotine i consumed during the stressful exam period), n doing nothing else but slack, slack slack.
wahahahaha~
n of cos go for my cruise next wednesday to play, eat (yes! wahhh...all the buffets n dim sum n western cuisine...sluuuuurrrrrp =9 ), soak in the luxurious jacuzzi, swim, get a tan, smoke in peace, shop in malacca n kuala lumpar (clothes! hee =p ), etc etc wif my bestest fren of all~
heehee... not to mention can ya1 n squeeze n bite her at nite...nah, make that all the time =p lolx!
sluuuuuuurp!! =9
(ahahaha, i sound like some sicko les =p too bad, who ask my sis not there for me to ya1 have to turn to the next best alternative le...Lolx!! ;p )
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+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 10:27 AM
Friday, September 26, 2003
scared
got scared half to death yesterday nite by xiang.
kept scaring me wif eerie sounds and noises... after my computer suddenly switched on on its own accord...xia4 si3 wo3 (scared me to death) ah! =(
ran to get my father to come into my room to check it out wif me =/
n xiang was still suaning me n scaring the hell out of me by immitating the scary sound effcts from the ring....
couldn't fall asleep until after i'd read books n books of comics to calm myself down n turn my train of tots away from all that...
U'LL HAVE RETRIBUTION ONE, XIANG! =[
U'RE GOING TO PEE IN YA PANTS IN FRIGHT WHEN U SLEEP TONITE!
SADAKO WILL CRAWL OUT OF YA COMPT SCREEN N SLEEP WIF U UNDER THE SHEETS!! PUIZZ!!
hmph.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:18 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
lines of weakness
its not that i dun give u chances to be there for me whenever i'm down, that u have to feel guilty when u cant help me out.
but look wat happens when i need u, look for u n u're not there for me?
how do u expect me to share my woes with u if u're not even there?
i may appear like the solid pillar u all are so fond of leaning against when everything's in mayhem, but i'm not made of steel n concrete, i have my own weakness too. when i show u my lines of weaknesses, the least i expect if for u to patch them up wif a little bit of cement. is it too much to ask for? but instead u ignore my lines of weaknesses n allow them to expand n deepen.
now i'm left wif a permanent crevice in my heart, that even i myself cannot mend. no matter how many layers of beautiful paint u paint over me now, the unmend crevice is still there; even though it remains invisible to the naked eyes, deceived by my exquisite layers of paint.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:17 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2003
Time is of the essence... yeah right.
Look wat a combination of stress n boredom (ironic juxtapostion. har har.) has resulted in... a whole afternoon of surfing the internet n doing online quizzes! n there's still lit paper 8 tml n human geog on tues....ooooooh....i'm so dead....so dead...*whimpers in fear*
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yup, pretty shows wat i'm (supposed to be) doing the next few days eh?? Lolx =p
but nah, i won't have that cute smile on my face thats for sure.
*bleeeeeaaah* =p
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NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Vivis LingXi Tan
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Vivis:
You have difficulty getting emotionally close to others. You believe in live and let live. You are future oriented. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have a desperate need for freedom. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen.
LingXi:
You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job. You have many diversified interests. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection.
Tan:
You are an overly sensitive person, often falling into a savior-martyr role. You are very skeptical and have more than your share of bad luck. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr.
http://www.miva.zodiacal.com/acro.mv
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 5:41 PM
Friday, September 19, 2003
Cruise tickets :)
haha, booked our star cruise tickets today.
finally ;p
ahahahaha~
damn ex tho...=/
$330+ man...feel the pinch.
going out to study human geog wif xiang tml.
raffles city's starbaucks.
sigh... physical geog paper today.
can go knock wall le lor... essays still ok, but din have time to finish my drq!! done onli 3 out of the 5 i'm supposed to have answered, can u imagine?! thats 20 marks foregone! 20 marks out of 100??
i'm so dead sia... hoping to pass, but...sigh... how to!?
n xiang telling me she believe i can make it? can get a C for my overall geog (physical n human combined to get the average of both)?!! as long as i pia my human geog get an A for it??
yeah, right. i wish.
nice one, xiang. but an a?! i get c for human i am4 chio3 (laugh in secret) le arh; which will at most bring my average up to E (passing grade) only.
sigh... but still, gotta pia for my coming papers le =/
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:32 AM
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Imsomnia
yup, prelims has officially started...
15 essays to write for the whole of the exams.
yup, u've seen correctly...15 essays.
Lit Paper 1 exam (3 essays) yesterday and GP (1 essay) n econs paper 3 (another 3 essays) today...
7 essays down, 8 more to go.... *groan*
lets see...
there's 2 essays for lit paper 4 and 2 essays for lit paper 8.
2 essays for physical geog n 2 essays for human geog.
arrrrrgh.
hmmm...lit paper 1 went ok i guess.
its hard to fail lit unless u din complete the essays so i guess i'll pass.
*recalls last jjl's incomplete test though*
erm.... -.-"
but not putting much hopes in this paper...
othello was like, huh? hard times was hard (curse the stupid charles dickens for writing such a see-no-understand novel) and silas marner incomplete. end result?? bravo...prob jus a passing grade.
hmmm...did i jus say i'm not putting much hopes in this paper?
sorry, let me make a correction...in all the three lit papers!
think if i were to pit my performance against the class percentile, i'd scored better than average in paper 8. but its one thing to do them as assignments or tests under time constraints, its another to do them under exam conditions (ie. stress)! hai...after my last lit test paper for jjl, i cant afford to not do well in her upcoming paper le... =/
and as for my lit paper 4, wat can i say?? two words...
blur and bluff.
still dun understand any shit of wat we'll have to write during the exams. guess like paul chau (our lit teacher for that paper by the way) says, we'll jus have to crap and bluff our way thru. yeah, rite...
hmmm...GP was ok today i guess...hopefully i'll pass.
but its econs that left me with the most sense of satisfaction as well as a sense of waste. cheem? go figure it out.
hmmm...a sense of satisfaction cos tho i know i'll probably still fail my econs overall, for this paper 3 even, but i'd been able to write an essay on a subject that i'd studied and practiced on before...finally man!
all the role of govt essays that ms. lai (our beloved econs tutor) had forced us to do has paid off...
saw a similar rog question on the exam script today and jumped straight into it...tho i wrote the essay in more than 45mins, but still...cant believe i actually manage to do it!! so happy... haha =p
but yeah...
the rest of the the two essays was crap.
dunno if i can pass either one of them anot, but as long as i pass that rog qn, i'm happy enough :)
cos it means that there's still hope for me if i study.
oh yeah...and guess wat??
my star virgo dream is not a dream anymore =)
mum has given the green light and xiang n i will be going to book n buy our tickets this thurs or fri!! ;p
ahahahahaha~
so happy!! >.<
been so distracted by all these anticipation the past few days that i find it hard to even concentrate on my exam papers. kept drifting off half-way thru n start day-dreaming bout how it'll be like to go on the trip wif xiang, to be all by ourselves and enjoy and relax and have the time of the world on a place where no one recognize us...
having trouble sleeping these few nites...
dunno issit cos of the coffee i've been drinking to keep me awake cos of the exams, or my body clock still not adjusted back from the one week sept hols, or my subconscious reluctance to fall asleep n dream of all that again...
shall try to sleep tonite. no exam tml so shouldn't be so stressed... issit cos of stress??
dunno wat to do if i really cant fall asleep again...pop a few pills??
lolx... sounds so nasty :p
nah, dun misunderstand. i really mean only a couple.
yawnz...gotta pia physical geog tml le.
gambate pple! =)
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 9:49 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Star Cruise Virgo dream...
Your Name: Vivis Tan Ling Xi
Your Date of Birth: 01/07/1985
Your Question or Information: what is my future love life and fortunes like?
Past Berkana - Growth, abundance, fertility, Mother Earth, protection, the zenith of an idea or situation. | Present Tir - Victory, leadership, success over other competitors, increase in finances, virility and passion (especially for men). | Future Neid - Need, desire, fulfilling those needs, love and sex magick, motivation created by distress. |
Cast the runes here:
Rune Caster
ahaha, got this "quiz" from ian's blog. seems like he's very into these hororscopes, fortune telling and tarrot cards stuff... so girl :P
hmmm... smth wrong wif the results , the background supoosed to be white, now my words cant be seen. if u're interested in reading it, jus highlight wif ya cursor the area where the words are supposed to be (beside the signs) n u can read it from there.
haha, but the rune readings does seem to answer my question doesn't it??
now, if only i can decipher wat it means... =/ *roll eyes*
xiang n i have made to plans give ourselves a short vaccation and go on a cruise after prelims. straight after prelims, the day after her last paper (since her last paper is half a week after mine).
yeah, plan to... but dunno will get to see it thru anot.
really hope to... need a break away from all these shit.
still remember the last time i went on cruise wif mum, sis n relatives... threw all my troubles to the winds, came back wif a load off my shoulders, felt really good after that; refreshed n recharged, ready to tackle any problems that i'd left behind on my trip.
yup. hope that i'll be able to get the same result from this trip.
but there's the prob of getting my parents (or rather my mum, since i dun care bout wat my dad says) to nod their heads n give the green light.
n the more crucial prob of where are we gonna get the money from?!!
came up with alot of stupid ways in which we can get money (including cheating guys to hotels for sex transactions then running away, getting sugardaddies, etc). unfortunately, we have no time for that... ahaha, we're joking of cos! *bleeeaaah* =p
hai...really wanna go... all sorts of buffet n good food all day long... warm, luxurious jacuzzi, swimming n sun- tanning, smoking on the deck at nite while enjoying the nite view from the ship, not having to fear anyone catching us smoke or care if we have smoke smell on ourselves, searching for that elusive italian chef thats to be my hubby (Lolx...*wink wink* ;p ), n spending the entire blissful trip wif my best fren... taking lotsa photos as well as shopping, bargaining n flirting when we disembark from the ship (at the two mid-way cruise destinations) to shop for souvenirs n matching accesories, etc which onli the two of us have that we can brag to others we had bought on a cruise we'd gone together, onli the two of us... bliss~ :)
*gazes into the distance dreamily for awhile...*
ok, *kok kok* time to wake up n stop dreaming le.
still dunno we'll be able to anot...
still, we can hope cant we?? =)
money money money money!!
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A Shoulder To Cry On
Tommy Page
Life is full of lots of ups and downs
But the distance feels further
When it's headed for the ground
And there's nothing more painful
Than to let your feelings take you down
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you by your side
And when you need a shoulder to cry on
When you need a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
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When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there
All of the time when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like there's no use going on
You can't give it up
I'll help you work it out and carry on
Side by side, with you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be your friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there
You'll have my shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone 'cause I'll be there
And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:41 AM
Friday, September 12, 2003
i love u. dun leave me...
no mood to blog now, but hafta spread a little msg...
xiang, u cannot die ok??
i'll really really grieve/ fall into depression/ cant pick myself up ever again if u do...
i'll nv forgive u oso!!
n i'll never forgive myself; for not taking care of u properly, not being there for u as a best fren shd be, not worthy of being ya best fren at all, n esp for causing ya death cos i didn't manage to pull u up as is my job as ya best fren. u wun wan to see me living in guilt for the rest of my life will u?? robbing me of a happy life cos my life will never be happy again withoit u to share it wif me.
my life is happy only cos u n lyn are in it.
my life is colourful onli cos u u paint them on, wif ya smile, ya laughter, ya jokes, ya hilarity, our times spent together- our "courage" when the two of us are in each other's company, our stupidity, our flirtiness, our joys and even sorrows. we shared everything together. by leaving me u'd have taken all these away too... how am i gonna intro to pple that i've a 8 (and counting) year best fren if u're not ard anymore??
so cherish yaself n ya life.
and stop scaring me!! my heart cant take it one hor!!
*growls* =[
love u dear...
dun leave me.
dun die.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:17 AM
Thursday, September 11, 2003
hilarious dream ;p
Lolx...xiang had a hilarious dream a couple nites ago that we'd gone down to bt again n this time, i got drunk...=p
at coffeebean jus now n she was describing to me the dream...
we'd finished 2 bottles of black label n were very very high, esp me.
and i was behaving so...erm...hua1 chi1 (love-sick) over ah hock?? wah biang...cant imagine i'll do all those things wif ah hock in real life!! LOLX!!
ok...i mite, provided i'm really really drunk =p
n then there's how i treated xiang in the dream...
after all the stuff at bt (damn funny lor...but too much to type) n later on when bt was closed for the nite, peter (a very hunky bt regular) sent xiang, me n ah hock (i refused to be separated from him in the dream!!) back. but i refused to be sent home cos i wan to be wif ah hock!! wah biang...lolx!
cant believe myself in the dream man Xp
so we went to the beach to tong instead.
a tent had magically appeared at the beach (as dreams always do) and ah hock n i had thrown ourselves into it n slept (since the two of us were drunk). when xiang had tried to come into the tent n tried to find a corner to sit only, i'd KICKED HER OUT OF THE TENT!! n several times too!! cos she kept trying to crawl back in...WAHAHAHAHA!!
can u imagine me kicking xiang out of the tent?? kicking as in really kicking damn hard to get rid of her??!
wat must i be thinking in her dream?? spoil me n ah hock's little world issit??! Lolx...
n after she'd done so much to protect me from "wolves" (our name for guys wif bad intentions) n ah hock...=p
tho she said ah hock was very nice n gentlemanly in her dream lah. but he's also high le, so we did exchange alot of flirtations....haha. good thing he did flirt back wif me arh, else as if i flirt until veri one-sided like...LOLx =p
wah biang...in the end xiang n i were laughing so much bout it (esp me, so darn embarrassing in the dream lor...falling all over myself to flirt wif ah hock!) that it seems as if we were toking bout smth that really did happen!! Lolx~!! really seems as if it did man, since her dream's sequence n happenings are so realistic.
tho the part where she kept falling out of the tent continuously (when i kicked her out umpteen times) was so bloody comical...really laughed my heads off when i heard it, n everytime else subsequently when we recalled this particular scene Xp
hilarious man...
after that we were discussing: we dun mind if these really happened...cos the nite at bt n afterwards (in her dream) was so fun n memorable...not to mention hilarious =p
n if i could use this chance to get close to ah hock too, y not?? ;p
Lolx!
ok, i fa hua chi, nvm me...=p
if laughter produces those happy hormones (yeah, can see that i've forgotten wat they're called =p ) in our body jus as eating chocolate does, then i've probably produced enough today to put me in permanent euphoria for the rest of the week!! haha =p
but then again...seeing that prelims is jus next week, my happy hormones will probably be used up faster these few days and i'll be left wif nth much but lotsa stress n nervousness by the weekends =/
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 3:42 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Dancing with her...
i miss Her.
took a gay quiz for fun jus now (yadar yadar, i shd be studying i know).
some of the qns:
have u danced wif one (a girl)? yes.
Were you dancing with her exclusively? yes.
tot of Her... dancing that nite wif Her at illusions.
her initiative, her encouragement, her dancing, her reciprocation, her smile, her daring, her alcoholic highness, her sweetness, her magnetic presence, her seduction, her laughter, her exclusive attention on me, her hands...on mine, holding mine.
tot i'd alreadi forgotten that nite, but the words on the quiz serves to bring everything back.
keep recalling wat happened that nite at illusions... esp the time we spent on the dance floor.
didn't noe she likes to dance (prob high?). on the platform somemore! dragged me up to dance wif her, so paiseh... kept insisting dun wan (my dancing isn't all tt fabulous) but after several attempts she managed to drag me up successfully.
dancing wif her was bliss, but i was feeling so self-conscious =/
(yikes! in front of everybody n esp in front of her.)
but she guided me and held my hand throughout... positioning me this way n that so tt it wun be so awkward.
but i was still piaseh. esp when she took me by surprise turning me ard n dancing wif my back to her front...now, thats paiseh.
wasn't very successful cos she took me by surprise n i was pretty awkward le, not to mention paiseh.
but its her initiative, her guidance, her encouragement, her persuasion and her attention that nite thats so endearing...
miss that nite.
miss those times.
miss her company...her laughter.
miss her.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 1:35 AM
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
freaking out
think i'm freaking out.
hello~?? five days plus to go n i HAVENT STARTED STUDYING??
ok. freaked out.
someone tell me this is a joke...where has my time flown??!
WO BU YAO!!!
~screams
relax gal...breathe.
i'm behaving as if i'm high on caffein or smth.
nah, gonna have my smoke to calm my nerves then have my cup of coffee to boost my adrenaline to finish my limestone today. shit sia...so much to do in so little time.
hope my sis can help me go sch take my othello for me tml man...so bloody no time liao.
~screams
ok...smoke time.
hope my sis doesn't act up again tonite...hai...
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+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 11:31 PM
Steamboat
went to minyang's house for steamboat in the evening today.
mah jiam (as if) a class reunion like that =p
can imagine that after we grad from our 'A's have class reunions will be like that, haha =p
rainy nite. dark, cold and cloudy.
perfect weather for having nice hot steamboat under the heart-warming atmosphere in minyang's house today =)
lets see who's there... minyang (of cos), benny, chi, chong luk, erman, apple, xuan, glo, claudia, josh and even layhoon! n myself of cos =p haha.
not that many pple it seems, but we filled up two tables n had two steamboat pots.
n too much food.
lotsa prawns n fish n sotong (my favourite!) on top of everything else.
yummy!! =9
Lolx.
in the end we still left so much food it seems as if we actually haven started eating or can have another round of steamboat tml nite like that, haha =p
one whole box of prawns left sia!! at least 1kg. imagine wat i can cook wif this if i have it at home...wahhh...
haha, think minyang dun hafta shop for food for at least a week le...so much mushrooms, greens, fish n seafood left sia...
went downstairs to play wif sparklers after dinner, before coming up to watch Friends on tv again.
apple did a glitter tattoo for me, on my ankle.
quite sweet looking, haha.
been sometime since i contacted ian (ok, less than a week...but still considered a pretty long time as compared to usually). tot he wud be going minyang's house for steamboat today but his sis' birthday today, he went out for dinner wif his family instead =/
was afraid tt we'll be mo4 shen1 (unfamiliar) wif each other after such a 'long' period of dryness but he called me today n it was jus as before again =) so nice to hear him laugh, haha.
jus a pity that he couldn't come tonite.
was msging him below my void deck (not mine, another block's actually) while i was smoking jus now, and discovered that i missed him.
hai...too bad everybody's busy wif studying for their prelims, cant come out.
tot of jioing him out to study, but afraid scully distract him he wun be able to study also.
smoked n msged him for bout an hr before returning home.
hmmm...hope he'll initiate by asking me out to study the next few days.
think he will...?? ;p
Things to study over the next 6 days (so little time!! *freak out*):
1. Physical geog
~limestone n granite
~fluvial n hydrology
2. Human geog
~population n tourism
(will leave human geog out if i've no time left...which is very likely)
3. Econs
~jus bout everything...bloody hell.
(ok, but mainly...)
~ ROG n International Trade n their relating topics
~do ROG n IT essays
~National Income n Emplyment n relating topics
~Market Structures
4. Lit paper 1
~Hard Times, Silas Marner n Othello (which is still in sch!! dammit...gotta return to sch on my alreadi bloody packed schedule! dui...)
Leaving the rest of lit stuff n human geog for during the exam period...no time to squeeze them into these 6 miserable days le...hai...=/
when shd i return to get my othello??!!
wish i can magically make it reappear in my room...grrrr...
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:38 AM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
Alcoholic amnesiaic... =p
Lolx...xiang really forgot wat happened ytd!!!
ahahahaha!!! Xp
for the most part aniway...but din expect her to dun remeber so many things.
actually forgot that she kana 'invaded' by a waitress called Rose there whom we suspect strongly to be les...rose told xiang she's les (either this or that she's interested in gals...erm...) but xiang din rem anithing. onli when we were goining thru all the things she did n said to xiang last nite (when she can still remember) and those i saw (when she cant remember le) that looks damn suspicious le...
aiyoh...aniway, she jus drunk until she made a fool of herself lar!! =p
told her bout the kenny's incidents today...she remembered NOTHING.
blasting bout it while i was relating them to her...
end result?? plenty of stitches in my sides today.
and joke of today (when i meet her later on)?? that she talked to a potted plant Xp LOLX~!!
my god =p
we were reminicsing our BT days as waitresses at wm's coffeebean.
and relating to her wat judy n ben said last nite (which she cleanly forgot)...really very touched.
haha, even drew out our positions in the pub while that happened cos she wans to get a clearer pic of wat happened!! (yeah yeah, she's there. but thats the extent of her drunkedness =p )
wah... really lor. in front of all there present waitresses lor!! dun they (as in judy, ben and the management) care how they think??! maybe judy did which is why she purposely said those stuff...to gek n hint the present waitresses into doing a better job, esp since judy is a person who expresses her loves n dislikes very openly (albeit tactfully given her work conditions). but she's such a real n big-hearted person that any words of endearment that some outta her mouth, we noe they're spontaneous n that she meant them.
its precisely this spontaneity that shows how real the affections and compliments they expressed are....
yup. had a great time relating n recollecting wif xiang today =p
hmmm...apparently glo's brother's gf found my blog n discovered glo's most recent self-mutilation...
actually, i feel that its good that at least her bro noes bout it...more pple to keep an eye on her.
n her bro is living in close proximities (same house mah!) wif her so can keep a closer watch on her.
yeah...
but the thing tt i'm more worked up about is that somebody else read my blog!!!!! yikes!!
wat the....?!!!!!
so whoever's out there who's reading my blog (u noe who u are) who shouldn't be reading this, should noe not to talk bout it...arhh?? *glowers*
i've got a rep to maintain afterall...Lolx =p
oh yeah...n let xiang noe bout my blog today le...
(thinking wat the heck?! since so many pple getting to read bout it le, why not my best fren??)
paiseh siaz!! all my fa1 hua1 chi1-ing =p Lolx...!!
n was afraid i'd have hurt her in one of my entries (the one which i'd broken under so much burden n wasn't myself for awhile)... but jus let u noe, xiang--they're over.
n besides, they're words coming from a broken me then. dun take it to heart (even tho u said u didn't).
its not ya fault. jus me n my over-sensitivity =/
yup. love you =)
muaaaarckz!!
Ben's Angels~~!! yeah!! X)
P.S and oh yeah pple, be careful wif ya net histories... we wouldn't wan smth like this to happen again ya?? -.-"
My inner child is ten years old!
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Instead of bringing lovers to their knees with your use of feminine wiles, you simply use your mere presence.
Sexual healers treat bodies as temples - and not merely somewhere to place their bounty upon again and again.
As one of the select few, you are praised for your diligence.
You are not as flashy as other lovers out there.
Those who find you in their bed are very lucky indeed and are in for a treat of never-ending pleasure.
Healing every bit of your lovers both physically and spiritually.
No one will ever leave your bed without a sense of peace and relaxation. If they leave it at all!
What Sexy Woman Are You?
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Saturday, September 06, 2003
Ben's Angels...
jus came back from BT wif xiang.
our last time chiong before we settle down to study for our prelims le....last time, hopefully =p
happy time tonite...
most memorable things tonite being the time when ah hock joined our table and... guess wat??
xiangling got DRUNK!!! Lolx... =p
its xiangling as in xiangling, the gal wif the hai3 liang4 (alcohol tolerance like an ocean's)??!
n i'm supposed to be the one wif the lousier alcohol tolerance (compared to her lah)??
haha, she'll never live this down man...wahahaha ;p
ok lar, we did order AND finish one whole Black Label bottle, and i did drink slightly lesser than her...
but its only slightly lesser lo. haha...=p
sent her home after that.
we were supposed to take a ride from kenny n bryan, but kenny oso drunk cannot make it le n bryan has to accompany him. n xiang was so high n making such a fuss that i decided not to wait for them n took cab instead. can u imagine her thinking that a lorry was Kenny's car and tried to climb onto it??!
i nothing to say liao... the colour n size is like so diff?? n xiang was still insisting that she's OK.
yeah rite, n i'm madonna.
but she's such a disobedient drunk! (tho better than last time liao)
i'm sure i wasn't so naughty when i was drunk last time.
at least i think so...??
wait till i tell her bout her antics tml morn...sure she dun remember them liao...
trying to open the lorry's door??
talking to a pot of plant thinking it was kenny (sitting over there)??
thinking she was on kenny's car all the time after we'd alighted from the cab?? ...LOLX!! Xp
but haha, ok lar...i drunk once, she drunk once fair enough lor =p
but came back wif the stench of her vomit on me =/
(after she alighted from the cab...poor thing sia, i know how it feels...)
sent her up to her home. can hear david scolding her after i closed her door n while walking down the four flights of stairs man =X
the cab driver who's waiting for me downstairs could even hear it n tot it was her parents...diao.
david sure is a strict disciplinarian =/
hmmm...ah hock was there at BT tonite.
discovered he had pretty nice hands....ahahahaha =p
the few of us- ben (our boss), bryan, ah hock, his fren, xiang n i were playing finger-guessing game so get to see his broad hands quite often. broad, squarish, clean, short nails (needed in his line of work in the medical field i guess)... and smooth palms.
gotto to high-five him a few times during the game (he initiated one!) when we beat bryan =p
oh yeah, and he has a gentle touch too...=p
he had his hand on my shoulder n arms and ard me for sometime (but never beyond a gentleman's boundery). yup, felt nice all rite =)
think he, ted and ben are the onli ones at BT so nice and gentlemanly enough that i feel comfortable letting them do this. they're the rare ones who wun yue4 gui3 (travel outside the track).
i like nice broad hands!!!! x)
feels so blissful n secure!! hehe =p
Lolx.
hmmm...another memorable thing was when judy was introducing us when talking to a new customer today, towards the end when they were bout to close and we were bout to leave le.
we were at the counter chatting wif the management as usual when they closed and as usual wif all our hugs and goodbyes and endearments.
and judy hugged me and xiang to her bosom and announced to all the management n present waitresses there that we're their best waitresses!!...so touched sia... 6_6
n ben seconded her opinions too!! hugging us and telling that new customer we're his staff and his gals even tho we're not alreadi.
and all these in front of all their present waitresses somemore! wonder wat they're thinking...
judy was like hugging us to her and reccollecting the past to the new customer that the three of us had been like the three Charlie's Angels during that era. wif ben being our 'Charlie'. she was going on about how we were their best waitresses and their gals even tho they'd seen how many years in the pub alreadi!! 12 to 14 years in fact; and judy's been wif them for the large part of it for like 11 to 13 yrs??
she was saying we were very "automatic" (as a waitress perhaps?) and etc etc and singing the charlie's angels' theme song. is it called "automatic" or smth thats y?? gotta check it out...
but wow...thats such news coming from her mouth...6_6
knew that the management dote on us, but had always tot it was cos onli cos we were their waitresses and we were young gotta look out more for us. didn't know that we'd actually left such a big impression on them... really very touched.
perhaps its oso cos good waitresses, esp in our line-where we've to strike a balance between waitressing, socializing, drinking, creating good working conditions wif the management (not easy esp under Gin's supervision) as well as protecting ourselves- are hard to come by. esp at our young age too (at 17 last time), where we can shoulder their heavy working responsibilities and pressure from customers.
seen and heard from xiang (when i din go down) some of their waitresses who worked there after we left... some really cannot make it, while the very few who arent so slutty (flirting and fondling the customers shamelessly? gawd) definitely dun have our finesse.
esp xiang's. think she's meant for this line of work where socializing and management are her forte.
she's a natural. social finesse and all.
yup, going into the hotel line after she grad (either for short term work after 'A's or long term occupation after Uni) will be an appropriate and wise choice for her indeed.
haha, then after she'd climbed up to be the manager or watever i can get free rooms and stuff from her when i go there spend my anniversaries wif my hubby!! Lolx =p
yup yup. and when i'd become a psychologist i can give her free therapy (choy! Lolx...=p ) or write good reviews for their hotel if i work for a magazine!! HAHAHAHA....=p
haha, check out this quiz...pretty unique.
tho me not good in chem but still...interesting.
Electron -- You are full of energy and frentic
movement. Although you have a philosophicaly
"negative" outlook, people would
hardly be able to tell it by looking at you.
You get along well with protons and those who
are positive.
What kind of subatomic particle are you?
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Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Fuzz therapy
went to westmall's coffebean to study wif sis.
well...brought lotsa stuff to study, but in the end onli did jjl's analysis.
glory came down to join us midway....knew bout her self-mutilaton stuff, din wan her to wallow in sorrow alone. the stupid gal. y do the pple ard me take life so lightly?
yup glo, u deserve ya slaps.
it may hurt u, but at least they serve their purposes in waking u up.
at least it shows that u have a best fren who cares so much bout u... u shd cherish yaself n not get hurt anymore. there're so many pple out there who get hurt against their will, yet u are foolishly hurting yaself voluntarily. dun do it again. think of those pple whose heart will bleed everytime u bleed externally.
even if u dun care for ya own physical well-being, care for how they feel.
ok, shd stop nagging alreadi =/
oh well.
went to meet xiang to smoke after that =p
haha, ended up having an unsatisfactory supper (noodles tasted stringly n hard to digest...stomache upset now...so hate eating till i'm full) n walking all the way to her house n playing wif piggy n david =p
david brought piggy downstairs to pass me my cab fare home, but we ended up playing wif piggy n taking walks ard the park for bout another hour, haha =p
so long din see my god-dog (eh?? juxtaposition =p haha) alreadi!! miss him so much!! keke.
his hair has grown man, so big, fluffy n furry, so cute!! n boy, has he grown...
erm...he's getting abit obese le. fat dog! too good life liao. 6-7kg now sia. carry him ard as we walk is so tiring (altho david carried 90% of the time). haha, but he's a happy n healthy dog, n thats all it matters rite?? =)
was afraid he wun recognize me le, after so long (a month or so since i see him??).
but once he saw me he started scampering n running ard me, barking n jumping n wagging his tail-- he still recognizes me!! so happy~~!! X)
played wif him under their void deck at first. then at the playground. then at the park. then at a shelter. then as they were walking me to the rd to take cab. end result?? reached home bout 2.45am?? keke =p
david oso pretty nice. esp considering tt we asked him to come down in the dead of the nite to pass me cab fare (we were broke!), haha. glad he trusts me wif piggy so readily too (piggy's his treasure sia)... put him into my arms n let me carry him so readily whenever i wan fuzz therapy =p
i even carried piggy as i slide down the playground's slide, haha.
haha, been a few weeks (2?? 3??) since i seen david too.
the two of them, owner n pet, make such a cute pair =p
yup. spent a happy n carefree time wif my best fren, good fren, n cute god-dog tonite =)
but it'll be at the expense of my beauty sleep...long day ahead tml (esp if jjl wans extra lesson after sch tml!). haiz... =/
haha, already made plans wif xiang to pon sch friday (unless smth crop up in sch) n go somewhere study then go BT at nite (our last time going out then we'll hafta prepare for prelims le). really missed BT's hospitablity...the staff-- judy, ben, mrs chua, really take such good care of us...(actually chased away all uninvited customers who joined our table for us, each time we been there)...so touched 6_6
yup, shall return one last time before prelims start.
She's been msging me again the last few nites...
very sweet msgs... kinda misleading...
dunno wat She's thinking, but glad that She still remembers me.
daydreaming today: wat if we get together n meet up again after my 'A's when i'm free to go out?? the two of us onli n we're close again?? will i tell Her how i felt for Her last time??
will i dare?? or rather, will i get a chance?.... 6_6
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