The Heart Keeps Beating

[ Me ]

Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore

Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal

Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk

My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis

[ Likes ]

Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister

[ Fave Books ]

Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!

[ Currently Reading ]

Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke

Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke

The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall

Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie

Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer

The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera

The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova

[ The Wishlist ]

My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236

Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem

Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)

The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien

Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection

12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets

GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)

DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)

Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)

The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink

The BodyShop blusher BRUSH

Shiseido eyelash CURLER

Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room

A new big every-purpose BAG

Pretty SHOES

A Digital CAMERA

A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[

The Sims 2 (PC game edition)

[ The Memories ]

Friday, October 17, 2003

reluctant reflections

jus felt like blogging so despite my tite time schedule, i'm here.
still owe ian my econs case study which i havent done yet!!!
oooohh...i'm so dead so dead so dead... *whimpers*
the big (n when i mean big, i mean it literally) bully was threatening me jus now...
man, how am i gonna finish it??!! i dunno how to do lar... n its 2+am alreadi lor!!
hai...nvm, shall find time. gotta do a little at least even if i come up with crap =/

but seriously, he nv fails to cheer me up when i'm down...
even tho he mite not noe it half the time.
plesantly surprised to see his msg last nite after i'd finish clubbing with them. but he'd fallen asleep when i'd replied at 3am.
he replied to my msg this morn when he woke up.
told him i felt bad....
n he sent msgs after msgs to cheer me up.
tho he dunno the cause of my unhappiness n jus tot i was sick n jus felt lousy n insecure (which i'd led him into thinking).

after a horrible nite of neglect, the care n concern by the ones u love can really touch you...

after last nite, decided i'm not ever gonna tell ian that i smoke le.
dun wan him to give me that kind of look n scold me...will really cant take it one. jus need to imagine his stern response n i'll get teary le...
hai... still feeling so emotionally fragile after last nite...

another thing i decided ytd...
never ever going clubbing without xiangling le.
felt so bad, so lousy, and jus...not rite.
felt so self-concious on the dance floor. jus dunno how to dance.
hai...dancing's alreadi not one of my strongest pts n i've to dance wif a zombie n someone who jus wun look at me.
sherm was like dancing by herself man... totally no eye-contact wif others n stuff. how does she do it??! where's the fun it it?

..................... ~.~

now thinking back, last nite wasn't so bad i guess.
the best time i had was while dancing wif the rest of them.
esp lay hoon (sexy~), tracy n their fren, Lynn, a new fren i got to noe that nite. at least they were dancing with me, unlike sherm (diao).
in fact, seemed to spend the most time with hoon n lynn last nite. n smoking with tracy too (haha =p ).

but i din get a chance last nite to tell siying they all (those in our sch) not to tell anyone else in sch that i smoke.
dammit.

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 2:55 AM