[ The Memories ]
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
lost n found: one tall, fair n pretty little sis
met the roy after work today.
ended up toking til nearly 4am before we went home.
quite a funny n easy-going guy, haha :p
my off day from work tml.
finally. woo~
meeting huishi for lunch tml, n maybe after that my sis for movie n dinner.
hectic work scedule made it such that i havent seen my sis' face for a few days already?? yeah, even tho we live in the same house; i go out to work in the noon when she's alreadi in sch n come back ard 12 midnite usually when she's alreadi asleep. diao...
lolx... we were even jokin over the phone today (imagine having to communicate wif her this way!) that we've forgotten how each other looks like =p
yeah... she's tall n fair and i'm tall n very pretty (ie. bullshit). lolx ;p
yup, gotta meet her soon before i forget how she looks like, haha.
hmmm... wonder is last samurai still showing?
god, i'm so back-dated.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 4:24 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
cat out of bag
been out wif elizabeth today :)
meeting her again next week.
feels so good to meet up wif old frens... a sentiment she also agrees wif, hee~ =)
still so much to catch up on... too bad i had work after tt... *pout*
=/
one more person who noes my blog...
ian, stop making fun of me ok!!
n stop wu hui-ing!! u thick skin tortoise~!!
i really really dun like u in that way okie?!! diao... -.-"
anyway, if i do like u its ya fu qi okie??! =p
since i got such high expectations.
ahaha...
*bleeeaaaaaaahhhh* >.<
hai...
this is like so embarassing?
....... -.-"
p.s i've the flu. passed on to me by the no good mike. i'm going to kill him tml!! =[
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 2:44 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
the past returns
its been quite some time since i last blogged. or even come online.
tho my only leisure these days has been playing the sims on my pc... cant really be bothered to come online now anyway. haha, but had to check out chuangyi n tongli's comics releases tml, so... ;p
third week of work already.
the oldies are slowly leaving one by one.
now its jus us three n the supervisor who'll be leaving after this week too...
like the feeling of being in control of the shop ourselves, running it efficiently in our own modus operandi.
as long as we do the job well, nobody can say or complain.
when i mean us, i mean the two of us- xiang n i.
this other 'colleague', mike... he's a damn fucking slacker al'rite?!
really really get on my nerves. imagine coming so fucking early to earn more pay than us but jus sitting there slack for the whole time he's there while we slog our butts off.
i dun mind the fact that we're busy n have to be on our feet most of the time. its the fact that there's an extra person there who's supposed to be our colleague n letting us do all the job while he jus time in early n time out late n getting his fucking salary for nothing.
i can be busy like siao, multi-tasking at the same time n he's sitting there stoning when a customer comes n he has the nerve to, "vivis, customer." hello? i'm sure u can see i'm busy. isn't it ya job also to entertain customers? or am i the only one working today? was bout to screw him but had to swallow my anger cos didn't wan to display my temper in front of the customers. i continues to multi-task after that again wif no help from him. wat the fuck? black face the whole time but he's obviously immune to this. is he thick or wat? fuck. think he jus wans to earn more salary n do as little as he can for it. n the thing is, it really shows. he's coming 4 to 5 hrs earlier than his shift when he shouldn't (boss wud screw him n send him back if he knew) n after timing in, sit there n stone, read his bks or do his own stuff until when we ask him to help wif anything. which he refuses or grudgingly, reluctantly mops about while he does it. then returning to slack again.
damn. knowing me its amazing that i havent already blew my top ya?
its him n another part-timer on the noon shift onwards tml.
intending to end my shift early tml leave them to their own devices. let them shou mang jiao luan. yeah, i'm doing it on purpose. but he's been working as long as we have, he'd noe wat to do if he hadn't been slacking so much.
if he screws up again (trust me, he has already. big time too, hah!), we'll let the boss noes who's responsible this time.
jus that the poor morning shift person (most of the time xiang) or the pple working the next day have to pick up their lan tan zi (the mess they made). fuck. there's no way we can let him suffer w/o us suffering along too. if he were a part-timer, he can be sure i'll never call him back to help. who cares if he'll keep calling to ask for a work slot? we dun need extra workers when that worker is no more help than he is an eyesore n more trouble.
will give them their instructions on wat to do after i left tml. if they din follow it or screw up, thats their problem already.
its a small world...
the part-timer is my first ever crush during my primary sch days.
was jus thinking where have all the pple in my past dissapeared to when he appeared in such close proximity out of the blue. can u believe it?? i can't.
n our supervisor tells us he's a lousy worker.
gawd. that's wat i need. another mike.
damn.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 1:12 AM
Sunday, February 08, 2004
how do u burn an iron bridge?
wat do u do when u realize u're in a love-hate relationship wif someone?
wanting to detach yaself permanently, wishing so hard u could.
but u couldn't.
n its not cos of a lack of determination either.
certain forces has drove us together rite from the very start, n that force has compelled me to return time n time again.
even when i tot i could tolerate it no more.
again.
its a never-ending cycle. but the forces determine that it should never have an end. ever.
wud i see clearer if i could have a break from all these?
but then again, certain other forces work together to make a negative statement as the answer to wat i deem the best solution.
how do u burn an iron bridge??
can somebody tell me?
but no.
its a problem where onli i hold all the strings.
its in my power to make any decision.
i'm sick of playing the bad guy.
but if i have to play it for the last time to reach my resolution, then i may well do it.
wish i could jus dissapear for a couple days to think things thru.
but of cos, my fucking work schedule wun give me two free consecutive nights to self-indulge.
wish i could jus go into hibernation n not wake up.
this way, i wun have to go thru fucking life as it is now.
some pple think they have problems. but try living my life bearing the weight of the brunt of everybody's problems.
it doesn't pay to be the strong one.
u're there for everybody, but who'll be there for u??
you cant even indulge in a moment of vulnerability, becos no, thats not how everybody's used to seeing u. oh nooo.
no. i'm sick of all these shit. nobody understands.
no. i dun wan to listen to any chirpy voice blabbering perserveringly to cheer me out of my stupor.
no. i jus wan a two week hiatus from all these shit.
is that too much to ask for?
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 2:12 AM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
3, 2, 1....
Happy Birthday best fren~!!!!!!!
Sweet 19~!!!!!!
*plants smacking wet kisses all over xiangling's delectable cheeks*
muuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaarcccccckkzzzzzzzzzz~!!!
;p
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 4:14 AM
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
fucked up anderson denmark
the new job is depressing...
i feel miserable jus thinking about work later on.
wat fucking low labour??
i hate it. i absolutely hate it.
i've studied so far jus to earn $4 per hr selling some fucking ice cream in some mall with some aunty n imbeciles.
my fucking uniform is a fucking hand-me-down n is fucking old, worn n yellowed that no amount of washing n bleaching can whiten.
i jus fucking hate wearing them!!
dun they noe that they'll have new staffs coming in? cant they fucking prepare some new uniforms? issit so incomprehensible or are they jus stupid? n no, i dun think they're serious bout getting us new uniform until next week when they confirm we'll be staying. by then i'd have happily shred it with my fingernails piece by piece.
everybody around me is asking me to quit this job even before i started.
everybody.
i dun tell them wat i'm feeling, dun wan them to feel justified in asking me to "look for greener pastures". fuck, don't they think i wan to??
even the admin jobs look good now.
i cant stand sitting in the office jus like that. but at least the pay is good n i can put it on my resume.
damn. i hate this job.
if the boss' not increasing the pay in at most a couple week's time, i'm quitting le. he can go eat himself for all i care. fucking low labour for such a fucking lot of work, of cos he'll be happy. n if i wan to look for other work, dun think i shd quit too late too; lessen my work time wif other companies.
damn, y din i think of this sooner last time when i'm looking for job wif xl.
i need the money.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 11:33 AM
