[ Me ]
Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore
Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal
Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk
My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis
[ Likes ]
Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister
[ Fave Books ]
Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!
[ Currently Reading ]
Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke
Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke
The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall
Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie
Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer
The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera
The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova
[ The Wishlist ]
My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236
Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem
Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)
The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien
Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection
12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets
GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)
DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)
Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)
The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink
The BodyShop blusher BRUSH
Shiseido eyelash CURLER
Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room
A new big every-purpose BAG
Pretty SHOES
A Digital CAMERA
A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[
The Sims 2 (PC game edition)
[ The Memories ]
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
farking misunderstanding
wah lao, really hate mike man.
can't believe it... dunno where to start oso.
issit my fault??
-.- ...............
i've mentioned before once in my blog that this is a small world...
mike's schmate (an aj) is linked to ian's blog, which i chanced upon one day. n rite in front of me jumps out the words "mike" n "plaza sing". how farking creepy is that?!
n even more coincidentally, it was the 'fren' whom mike told me dropped by at ps andersen on valentine's day.
the two (the schmate's blog entry bout his visit to ps n mike's account of it) actually links; then i jus confirmed wif mike the following day: "was his name i***??". and it is.
jus how farking small in this world??!!
din reveal anything bout his blog or even how i noe bout him, left mike to guess cluelessly.
everyone has things they'd rather keep private, either to themselves or their close circle of frens, which is the reason why we keep blogs anyway.
yeah... ts how i 'knew' bout this guy.
nv tot i'd actually have anything to do wif him cos i'd tot this is jus a one time episode.
but...
i can't believe mike actually told him wat i knew him or wat my fren told me bout him??! wat shit is that??! i left him to guess cluelessly cos i wan him to forget the matter after i'd satisfied my curiosity, not to lead him into fabricating ideas of his own~!!
was away for dinner break wif xiang n 'godpa' upstairs when i got a call from mike to tell me tt his schmate is here, was waiting to c who i am after he (mike the blardy idiot) had told him i knew him, n begged me to pls, pls pls pls dun tell his schmate tt he'd gossiped bout him before. wtf??!
if he was so worried tt his schmate wud noe bout his gossipping or speculating bout him, y did he start telling him bout me anyway (a false account at tt since he dunno the truth) when all the evidence pts to mike himself obviously having said "something" bout his fren to draw my attention to him... if i do tell his schmate the truth bout how i know him.
i have no qualms doing that, cos it isn't smth sneaky tt i've to hide.
i dun even mind handing my own blog addy to the guy jus so tt he'll noe how i knew him n make things equal. n my god! it was onli tt one time when i linked to his addy n mike's awful name caught my attention!!
n now i'm going to have it on my conscience as if it was i who revealed smth personal to mike bout him. when all i farking asked was "was his name i***?" !!???
got veri mad after tt guy left n demanded to noe wat mike told him.
tts when he meekly revealed all the stuff he told him...
was so angry i felt like punching him after tt.
since when did i say anything he said i said??!!
jus becos he pieced together wat i'd said before n form his own conclusions doens't mean he's rite ok??! or that he can put words into my mouth to save his own skin!!
lectured n corrected him for an hr or so after tt.
does he even noe wat kind of trouble he can cause me??
apparently the thick-head din realize wat his words had done. n when it slowly sunk into him his mistake, he was still so thick as not to realize it was his mistake.
feeling veri veri bad now....
like i got misunderstood for nth.
farking bad ending after an enjoyable dinner.
n now i'm worried of how wud ian think of me??!
like it was his link n i dun wan to get him into trouble?
esp if tt guy's really his fren.
reallyreally worried...
ian, if u're reading this, so sorry...
dun mean to cause u so much trouble...
so sorry...
wtf...
feel so farking betrayed n misunderstood.
like someone stabbing me in my back n putting words into my mouth.
thanks for ruining my rep to save ya own skin ya, mike?
thanks so much.
n then, there was the nagging tug at my conscience tt it is my fault...
my fault for being so k-poh as to click on other pple's blog links n catching sight of mike's name.
my fault for not keeping my curiosity to myself.
my fault for asking tt big-mouth gossip the guy's name.
my fault for under-estimating mike's capacity for badness n evil-doing.
my fault oso for not explaining to tt guy clearly before he left.
really dunno how to clear up the mess he made now...
explaining to him wud require me to tell him wat mike had said bout him, n tt wud probably ruin their frenship (if there was any to begin wif...).
not explaining wud drag my n ian's name into the mud.
explaining wud seem like i'm trying to cover up my mistake n find excuses for myself.
not explaining wud seem like its really true.
wat the hell.
tml's my last day at work.
but i'm sick of seeing him ever again.
not the least tml.
tot i'd end our working days on a gd note so tt i'll leave him a gd impression for the future.
after today, my impression of him has so nosedived tt i can't see myself keeping him as a fren anymore.
i dunno bout him, but this has sure taught me a lesson.
never to trust anybody so readily again.
not wif one's words or secrets.
but oso wif ya intuition of a person's positive character.
it has proved me wrong n done me more harm than good.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:55 AM
