The Heart Keeps Beating

[ Me ]

Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore

Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal

Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk

My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis

[ Likes ]

Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister

[ Fave Books ]

Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!

[ Currently Reading ]

Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke

Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke

The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall

Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie

Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer

The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera

The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova

[ The Wishlist ]

My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236

Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem

Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)

The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien

Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection

12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets

GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)

DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)

Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)

The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink

The BodyShop blusher BRUSH

Shiseido eyelash CURLER

Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room

A new big every-purpose BAG

Pretty SHOES

A Digital CAMERA

A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[

The Sims 2 (PC game edition)

[ The Memories ]

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

missin' 02A6

glo n shihan dropped by my workplace tonite :)
n dropped a nasty msg as well that "A level results are going to be out this week: wed or fri".
oh oh ohhhhhhhhh......
*moans in despair*
was so blissfully ignorant of it until then.
had actually forgotten bout its release already??
yeah, knew it'll be released after the 'o's release, but not this soon?!
god, how has time passed...

one thing good bout having this job at plaza sing is meeting so many jc, sec n pri sch frens, already met countless of them :)
saw claudia the other day; or rather, she saw me.
so qiao was jus thinking of her the other day oso.
miss the class pple...
tho i havent been very close wif claudia before, but i've missed the optimism, joyfulness n cheerful chatter she brings to the class n wherever she goes.
even the pple i tot i havent been very close wif are starting to tug at my heartstrings everytime i think of the class n the times we've spent.
layhoon n her fortrightness.
shermaine n her 'san-baness'.
aida n her "best fren".
chi n his marvellous rappings n impersonations.
narzirah n her sexy j.low impersonation.
minghann n his sweetness n helpfulness.
mingyang n his queer little lopsided grin tt always tickles me whenever i see it.
n of cos, ian n glo.
yeah... i miss them al'rite.

ironically, most of the above i've nv formed very firm frenships wif.
yet they had brought wat little colours into my drab n mundane jc life.
its onli now when u've lost these things tt u start to cherish them more.
how i long to be happy, tho never carefree, but at least happy like those times again.
i wonder are they thinking along the same lines as me?
heard from many pple (those who'd stepped into society already, n esp teachers) that its only when u'd started working that u'll appreciate n start to wish u're back in ya schdays.
this is esp true for me now that i've started working full-time n can fully ti hui the lost joys of the classrooms (or outside of it).

i'll be meeting them when we go to collect our 'a' level results of cos, but i dun think it'll be the same.
dun think many pple wud have the mood to stay n bond after that.
the ones wif good results wud be over the moon n out to celebrate wif equally exuberant frens.
the ones dissapointing grades jiu bu yong shuo le.
hai...
guess i shdn't even be thinking bout bonding when we noe which category i'll fall into already...

wondering how shd i nurse my broken heart after that...
i'm sure i dun wan to go out n face the world who'll noe that its the 'a' level's release that day.
dun wan to go down to bt to hear alzar-the-straight-as-scholarship-award-winning-overseas-graduate ask me bout how i fare, n telling me my grades are "ok for a jjcian wat". i swear i'll box him good.

think my frens who're going to receve outstanding grades wud not wan to be ard a weeping bleedingheart who's gonna wetblanket their happiness oso.
who can i find to console me?? =/
(yeah, i'll need consoling then hor, frens *hinting*)
think i'll jus return home to mope around the whole day...
=/

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 1:46 AM

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