The Heart Keeps Beating...
no matter what happens.
I'm Ursula. Welcome to my blog.
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Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore
Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal
Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk
My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis
[ Likes ]
Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister
[ Fave Books ]
Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!
[ Currently Reading ]
Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke
The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall
Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie
Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer
The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera
The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova
[ The Wishlist ]
My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236
Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem
Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)
The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien
Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection
12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets
GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)
DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)
Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)
The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink
The BodyShop blusher BRUSH
Shiseido eyelash CURLER
Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room
A new big every-purpose BAG
Pretty SHOES
A Digital CAMERA
A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[
The Sims 2 (PC game edition)
Monday, January 31, 2005
"The exit is this way, Mdm."
First date wif a new guy ytd...
Tho its nothing new already, but i'm getting stressed up jus thinking how i'm gonna keep those guys in check...
How can i keep dating but still feel nth??
Xiang says its gd tt guys dote on me, or like me more than i like them, as opposed to the other way round (urg, i wun wan to deal wif all tt angst too). esp since most relationships start to turn painful when the guy starts to feel too sure of the gal's love n start to take the gal n the things in their relationship for granted.
But its hard to settle down wif a guy n commit to a relationship if i dun feel anything for him isn't it?
where is the chemistry, the sparks, the attraction they feel for me that is totally lost on me?? maybe u really have to like a guy back n reciprocate his feelings to fully understand the things he's feeling...
Already i'm thinking to jus putting an end to it.
but this also requires courage to dash their hopes n hurt them...
tho i dun feel for them romantically, but even as a fren, i cant bear the tot of hurting a person like this (believe me, i have my own share of broken hearts too) n the guilt i noe i'll feel towards them if i jus reject them now...
I see them as frens, pple i can enjoy going out with, but they obviously wan more out of me than i'm prepared to commit.
n i feel bad for not being able to return their feelings.
Its easy to jus agree to being in a relationship - it takes nth more than a simple "yes".
But then, unless i love the person, it wun be special.
n i'd hate to have unmeaningful relationships tt i noe are going nowhere.
Do u all understand wat i mean??
n wif my exams coming up, its more time then i can spare on things tt may not work out...
on the otherhand, tt can be a good (n valid) reason for me to stop seeing them n jus let things fade away.
the coward's way out.
but aside from hurting them outrightly, its the most practical way out...
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 6:03 PM
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