The Heart Keeps Beating

[ Me ]

Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore

Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal

Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk

My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis

[ Likes ]

Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister

[ Fave Books ]

Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!

[ Currently Reading ]

Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke

Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke

The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall

Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie

Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer

The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera

The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova

[ The Wishlist ]

My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236

Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem

Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)

The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien

Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection

12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets

GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)

DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)

Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)

The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink

The BodyShop blusher BRUSH

Shiseido eyelash CURLER

Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room

A new big every-purpose BAG

Pretty SHOES

A Digital CAMERA

A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[

The Sims 2 (PC game edition)

[ The Memories ]

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Plaintive solace

Sometimes u jus get so tired of living.
No, i'm not being suicidal dun worry, I'm jus thinking in terms of living in general.
There is sadness everywhere u look, around us, in our lives, our families, frens, loved ones, it makes u think why are we still bothered going on with our daily lives as it is.

Then the answer comes to me - its a responsibility we owe the living.
Our lives are only important because of wat we make of it and because somebody else cherish it. We have the feelings of our family and the pple who love and care for us to think about, we have the duties to our parents, siblings to take care of.
But all these responsibilities sometimes are jus the shackles that bind u unwillingly to this earth.
They may be the things that keep u living, but they are also the things that keep u from dying a care-free death.

I thought i had become a more optimistic person now, and in a way i still am.
But i guess my anguished past has a way of creeping up on me sometimes still.
I guess, they have never really dissapeared, merely faded into the shadows, the melancholic wisps always hovering at its edges, never that far away, waiting to reclaim us into the dark throes of emotional anguish whenever we let down our guard.

And wat can living, breathing pple do?
We run, keep running, never stop running.
We fill up our lives with work, events, activities, things to keep us busy, things that seem to have a meaning, things which makes us seem more important, things to make us think life's worth living. We keep ourselves busy, we run, we look forward, we glimpse backwards occasionally to remind us of the shadows never far away, and it gives us reason to run faster, we try not to falter, and when we do, we take a breather in the loving allure of the shadows, and sometimes we linger, but when darkness becomes too much to bear, we pick up our steps and start running again, we may not know where our final destination will be, or even where our next destination is, but we keep running because we believe that it will lead us somewhere, and we may find out where, and one day, maybe one day, when we look backwards, the shadows will seem further away than it is now, so we keep running, we keep running, we keep running....

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 4:51 AM

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