[ Me ]
Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore
Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal
Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk
My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis
[ Likes ]
Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister
[ Fave Books ]
Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!
[ Currently Reading ]
Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke
Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke
The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall
Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie
Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer
The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera
The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova
[ The Wishlist ]
My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236
Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem
Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)
The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien
Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection
12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets
GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)
DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)
Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)
The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink
The BodyShop blusher BRUSH
Shiseido eyelash CURLER
Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room
A new big every-purpose BAG
Pretty SHOES
A Digital CAMERA
A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[
The Sims 2 (PC game edition)
[ The Memories ]
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Extrinsic rewards
Things to buy/do/splurge on with my first salary:
- Rebonding my hair again ($100 budget)
- Fixing/replacing my Creative mp3 player >.< ($90 for a new replacement since the buggers cant repair it!)
- New bag (actually, i may already have gotten this before my pay is here)
- Get some stuff for my sis (her birthday's this month actually, but think she wun mind waiting until i get my pay :] have new running shoes in mind, hmmm)
- Good food with sis n frens (SUSHI!! XD , or maybe that dim sum restaurant again, or Cafe Cartel)
*Grinz*
Some motivators huh? =)
Well, its all of that or paying the re-registration of UOL's fees of about SG$700+ and then some living expenses for the next month =/
Shoot. Need extra income
Knowing where to get it doesn't make the opportunities present itself.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 6:46 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Perspective
I've started work again after getting a call from my old law firm on Monday morn. Forgot how tired working makes u feel.
Okay, scratch that. I probably know thats y i'd postponed searching for a job for one and a half months. Haha!
I'm working in a different department this time.
The work's chicken feet compared to my responsibilities last time. Maybe cos i already had all that experience in my old department, makin this one seem pretty... yeah, temp job material.
But at the same time, menial chores jus takes time n effort. I'll have back my old one in the old department anytime.
Somehow there's a difference between when u're rushing a deadline for yourself and when u're rushing a deadline for someone else (though one can still correct me on that, seeing as its my bosses n my firm who benefit from all the work actually).
There's a lot to be said for being given free rein and the trust to finish your work on ya own time, therefore making it your own deadline instead of rushing a chore for someone else so they wud not get in trouble.
This is still the first week after all. Hopefully things will turn out better.
Though seeing as i'll only be working for 1 and a half month this time, i wud be gone before there can be much improvements, hah.
Its only a week, but the change in environment makes u think alot.
I feel alot, but am oso too tired (physically and mentally) to think about how i feel or think i feel much.
I think i'm lucky somewhat to have gotten very good n helpful colleagues last time and this time.
Maybe i'm jus anti-social though, not myself, i dunno.
I jus dun click. I dun fit in anywhere.
My firm is greatly segregated into two spectrums i feel. And i can say that after spending so long there wif both spectrums last year.
Its divided into the very elite - the lawyers, partners, associates, advocates, solicitors, etc - who have their own partitioned rooms or cubicles, and wat i term the 'floor', which consists of mainly their helpers, the secretaries, paralegals, various departmental assistants, etc.
I hadn't known it at the time, but apparently the floor pple mainly have 'N' or 'O' levels or diploma qualifications, if that. Despite the important sounding labels they have, or the type of work i thought only the qualified (i.e. those who studied n grad wif a paper) can do.
My ex-colleagues from the floor whom i still lunch wif now, thinks i'm in a class better than them, because i'm a uni undergrad, because i watch more english shows than i do chinese (and therefore do not noe who from wat shows they're toking about most of the time), because i dun really follow entertainment gossips (i try, trust me, but not having money to splurge on weekly tabloids now appear to have more effect on my social life than it does the stars), and because i havent heard of half the chinese myths, beliefs and superstitions coming out of their mouths. Hellooo? Cant i jus be ignorant?
It doesn't make me better than them when I DUNNO wat THEY KNOW!
And then the elites.
I had lunched n dined with them a few times, and maybe we know wat each other are talking about.
But, hellooo again??! They are lawyers. How can we be anymore different?
Once we've skipped the pleasantries and crapping and joking (with those fun ones that beats the stereotype of ya typical stern-faced sharks in three-piece-suits), there's pretty much nothing else to talk about except wat u did for the weekends. And oh yeah, more poking fun at each other.
I dunno enough crap to crap wif my floor bunch in chinese or dialect (yes, despite having spent the past 11 years in my best fren's company and trying my darnest to memorize wat each crap n ribbing is supposed to mean), and i'm afraid to crap too much n exceed the comfortable boundaries of the lawyers (hell, they're still my bosses after all).
I DO NOT FIT IN.
Either where.
Okay, all that incoherent verbal diarrhoea was to drive home that point.
I feel i'll rather lunch alone. All that socializing during lunch and work (or lack of it) is quite traumatizing.
Its wearing me out mentally faster than my work will physically.
I've always suspect that, if u take away all that office politics, networking and human relations from a job, the work itself leftover is actually a very very manageable task.
Though of cos, for those who dun like their job that much, all those happy relationships in the office are motivators to get out of bed every morning.
Ack. Dun tell me i'm an introvert after all?!
And i'd thought i got most of my motivation to go through every day from being with people.
+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 12:37 AM
