The Heart Keeps Beating

[ Me ]

Nickname: Ursula
Birthday: 7th January 1985
Zodiac: Capricorn
Where From: Singapore

Laidback, sensitive, fickle, easily-tickled, fiercely loyal

Manga and anime lover, enthusist, collector and critic/ Coffee lover, addict and expert maker/ Aspiring future wife of famous culinary chef/ Aspiring future wife of a 1.8m tall hunk

My Friendster link:
http://www.friendster.com/vivis

[ Likes ]

Sleeping, dancing, books, manga, anime, chocolates, coffee, Jap food, Italian food, Ayumi Hamasaki, people, my sister

[ Fave Books ]

Harry Potter series, Artemis Fowl series, The Inheritence Trilogy series, The Da Vinci Code, Memoir of a Geisha, I Don't Know How She Does It... and all my comics n manga!!!

[ Currently Reading ]

Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell
by Susanna Clarke

Inkheart
by Cornelia Funke

The Well Of Loneliness
by Radclyffe Hall

Midnight's Children
by Salman Rushdie

Madame Sadayakko: The Geisha Who Seduced The West
by Lesley Downer

The Unbearable Lightness Of Being
by Milan Kundera

The Historian
by Elizabeth Kostova

[ The Wishlist ]

My Amazon.com Wishlist:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/ref=yourlists_pop_1/103-2401787-9502236

Phillips MC235 Thin Stereo Microsystem

Kathy Van Zeeland bag
(saw on amazon.com going for bout US$65... Why dun Singapore stock her goods??! >.< I wan it in Topaz colour~!!!)

The Lord of the Rings
by J.R.R. Tolkien

Inu-Yasha Theme Song Collection

12 Kingdoms/ Juuni Kokuki anime VCD sets

GUESS bag (darn, i dun have the $120 required to buy it now and i noe it'll be gone soon, Guess always changing their apparels every month or so u_u)

DKNY gold and crystal-studded watch (very ornamental, more a dress watch then an every-funtion watch. still, pretty~)

Mphosis pale gold SLIPPERS (i run through my shoes and slippers like they cost nth X/)

The BodyShop BLUSHER in Golden Pink

The BodyShop blusher BRUSH

Shiseido eyelash CURLER

Full-length wall MIRROR(s) for my room

A new big every-purpose BAG

Pretty SHOES

A Digital CAMERA

A bloody new PC or laptop with the speed of light and a gazillion GB of memory!! =[

The Sims 2 (PC game edition)

[ The Memories ]

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Desist

I have refrained from blogging this or even saying it openly for the past one month or so for fear or returning to it again. If i fail, no one needs to know. And shd i successfully accomplish it for an extended period of time, we can celebrate then.
Already, it is more inconvenient and more difficult than i initially thought, and unlike most pple's assumption, it does not improve with time.
I have, though not yet completely, given up smoking.

But its not an easy battle to fight, any unbalanced emotion would trigger off an urge to inhale that calming haze again - anger, stress, upset, nerves, frustration, rage, nervousness, excitement, jitters, hate, euphoria, after dinner fulfillment, sheer boredom... And i've sure been experiencing alot of the above recently.
The only thing that keeps me from perservering is, not the thought of my health or overall well-being, but rather the thought that i dun have to waste tens of bucks on it every other week.

I've given myself small rewards occasionally, tantmount to the money i'd saved thus far...
going for a (much needed) haircut, buying a couple of books (the latest Artemis Fowl and Angels and Demons - see wat i'm *currently reading* at the left column), colour-fitting my specs lenses (it'd faded), loading on chocolates, buying better meals as a rare treat to myself... its easier to justify these spendings now that i'm saving some money from not buying cigarettes.
Its a good deal so far, these self-rewards are doing their work as motivators to stop me from going to the nearest Cheers or stall vendors and purchase the cheapest pack of cigarettes.

Unfortunately, because of the already secret nature of my smoking in the first place, i wun be getting any pats on the back for acknowledgement of my efforts so far. And i sure am not going to get much encouragement from any smoker frens too.
Thought i deserve an accolade or something so far, especially after how i came my closest to purchasing a pack ytd after a day filled with nerves at the first day at office. But i didn't. The urge man, the urge!
Arh... kudos to myself then i think =/ since there wun be any pats on my back from anyone else; not from pple who dunno of my habit, not from pple who are heavy smokers, nor from pple who are so opposed to smoking that they tot i shdn't have picked it up in the first place,

Arh yes, more rewards to myself... though i cant say dying from obesity from eating so much choc is actually better than dying from smoking (related illness) -.-
I wun say that i wun go back to smoking, because i most probably will... exams, stressful work days, troubled times, sch, studying, clubbing, stressful periods... i dunno when any of them wud trigger an irrepressible urge next time. This is one harsh reality that every smoker, once hooked, will face. I'm sure everybody who smoked before agrees with me. The most unfortunate hazard of picking up smoking. You never really detach yaself from the fishing hook.

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 2:57 PM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Day's Thoughts

Isn't it ironical how u think 20 is soooo old and when u're looking for a job, they think that u are young?

//
Cut my hair ytd. Weather is soooooo hot these days! Couldn't stand all the thick mass hanging about my face when i went out for interviews. Feels so much lighter now, hah! But the hair-dresser sure took alot off... from mid-back to above my bra-strap now. Arh, at least i dun have to suffer in the sweltering heat now.

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 8:56 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

Hol. job

Still looking for a job now, can u believe it?
Slacked so long after exams its been nearly 3 wks.
Dragged too long n now tt its the sch hols, alot of sec. n jc sch students lookin for holiday jobs too =/
Been looking since last mon, still not much good offers... either too far or the pay's not good enough. where can i find a well-paying admin work? Wanna find smth tt pays bout 8bucks per hr. but job agency rates are like onli 6 bucks. freak.Eat so much of our commission -.- Looks like i cant rely on agencies le. but they sure do find jobs lot faster.
Hmmm... workworkworkmoneymoneymoney...
Anyone have any introduction?

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 5:26 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Bucky wisdom

"I live in a world where i have to dumb down everything i say! I'm pretty much just grunting out basic syllables!"

- Bucky Katz from Get Fuzzy

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 10:41 AM

Friday, June 03, 2005

ISFP - "Artist". Interested in the fine arts. Expression primarily through action or art form. The senses are keener than in other types. 8.8% of total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 2:34 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Random Ramblings

The way to my heart is through my stomach.
(yup, proves i'm more n more like a guy ain't it? or more like a glutton at any rate)
Or alternatively, through my sister's good books.
Unfortunately, both my sis n my stomach are hard to please... Lolx!

+ Ursula r e m e m b e r s again + 1:11 AM